How do you open your heart to someone new when it's been so damaged? Just jump.
I am so acutely aware of red flags. I will never again settle for anything that my inner world doesn't agree with. Being single is really much better than some give it credit for. Why would I consider giving that up? It certainly won't happen for just anyone.
I have to admit, I'm proud of myself. There have been so many chances to settle. It won't happen. Not again. It's so much easier to just say, "Fuck off." Its amazing how many people won't do just that. Just walk away! I used to think I didn't deserve better. I see my self worth now, and I know I do.
There are a lot of things in life that would be less frustrating with a partner, but it's not something I need.
But, then he walked into my world and made me question the wall that has been securely built around my heart.
Brick by brick.