The
beginning is always the hardest. So, a little about me, and how I ended up
where I am. I was born and raised in Dayton, Ohio, one of the quickest dying
cities in the country. There are people trying to bring it back to life, but
from my perspective, it is not working. No matter how hard I try to escape,
there is always something bringing me back. The last time, it was more of a
push than a pull.
I
was married, for 10 years, to a very troubled man. Despite my love for him, in
the end, I did what I felt was best for my children. For them, seeing a man
with rage anger on a daily basis was doing more harm than either my husband or
I realized. A month and a half after moving to Washington, and finding the home
of my dreams, a friend sent me an article detailing the effects domestic violence
has on children. As I mentally check marked the items already affecting my
children while hiding in the bathroom, it did not matter how much I wanted to
stay and make it work. My instinct as a mother took over, and without much
thought, the next day I waited for him to leave for work and then loaded my
kids and what little would fit into my beat-up Trailblazer, and headed to the
Spokane woman’s shelter.
It
has been a little more than a year since I left, and while the pain has become
more of a deep ache, my journey is far from over. I finally have the strength to
share my journey. In my life I have been touched by many kinds of struggles –
from severe depression, anxiety, and grief to simply finding my way
spiritually. There is no rhyme or reason to what I post or when I post it, but
I hope to touch at least one person with my experiences.
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